| To D. Brown, |
[Jul. 29th, 2009|11:12 pm] |
D, I know you've moved on and I've heard of how you now think about me - you think I'm not that good looking (or ugly, admit it), annoying and I think about sex all the time. I can't say anything that will change your mind, beauty is a very subjective thing. I think you're cute and adorable, my friend doesn't but you think my friend's cuter than I am. I can live with that.
I can also live with the fact that you found me annoying - the problem is that you never told me, I work 9 hours a day, spend 2 hours traveling to and from work and you're the only person that that has ever bothered to ask me how I felt when I was at work, for those four days, you were that silver lining, my bright ray of sunshine that I look forward to on a dark and rainy day. I thought I gave you plenty of personal space, I know I can be pushy sometimes so I tried really hard to limit how many texts I send you, waiting patiently for a reply until I send the next one. Each one gave me hope, brought a smile to my face becuase it gave me the hope that somebody out there cared for me as much as I cared for them. The only time I didn't hold back was when you were on MSN, since I thought you wouldn't mind, I never tried to make you stay longer and always told you to have fun when you left. I respected your personal space and would've given you more of it if only you had told me. I am so sorry for not noticing it, I really am.
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| There are no emo boys in Hong Kong. |
[Jul. 27th, 2009|02:25 pm] |
As the subject title says, there are no emo boys in Hong Kong, which is strange since there's truckloads of them in everywhere else.
...perhaps Hong Kong should start importing emo boys from other countries to fill this void and take it off the hands of their original nations. I know it'd make everyone much happier...or at least I would.
On another note, I miss Devon. |
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| Gah... |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|02:46 pm] |
So I was talking to a local guy on a chatroom and he asked if I had any pics, I sent him a link and he said he can't find it. I told him to scroll down, he started swearing at me because he can't find it and I was 'obviously' scamming him.
Idiots...
[/rant + blurb] |
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| You know what really grinds my gears... |
[Jun. 14th, 2009|06:29 pm] |
Everyone has their little list of things that bothers them, here's one of them from me:
When you're on a local (i.e. HK) forum, poeple "push" when they mean "bump", I mean seriously, it's called bump becuase it was the name of the original function in English. Don't bloody translate it into Chinese and then revert back to English with the Chinese translation thinking you're damn smart or something.
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| Politics? |
[Jun. 13th, 2009|08:32 pm] |
I love politics, so much to argue about, so little progress. If cooking a meal progressed the way a political debate did, we'd all be dead before we even got around to deciding what to eat.
On a similar note, I don't understand American politics, what's so hard about the notion of supporting a particular policy while not agreeing with another? Does EVERY issue have to be Democrat vs Republicans? I mean, what if you're gay and support the war in Iraq? How do you even vote?
And what's with all the Obama-nuts thinking that everything Obama touches turns into gold along with the concept that even his fart smells of CHANGE and HOPE because he's Obama?
Here is a list of people who demanded change and/or hope:
-Lincoln
-Martin Luther King
-Hitler
-Stalin
-Mao
-Pol Pot
-The Kims (of North Korea)
-Ho Chi Minh
Not that I'm trying to say Obama is LIKE any of those people or taking a stab at him turning America communist but it's politics - nothing happens in great big leaps.
Obama will accomplish very little at the expense of the nation's support if he does not try and make that understood by all those who voted for him since they're going to be very disappointed that there is no apparent change by his first 2 years as President.
I wanted to see McCain as President, but Obama won - given the circumstances, I will hope get full 8-year 2-term Presidency so that he has enough time to fulfill his promise to the American nation. |
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| Part II of: Local Hong Kong people piss me off. |
[Jun. 11th, 2009|08:35 am] |
You know, I think what somebody told me is correct. Local Hong Kong people, especially those who are younger have a inferiority complex when it comes to foreign languages becuase to them, it's an extremely hard thing to learn even though there's a staggering amount of English speakers in Hong Kong and how potential employers value those with good English.
This brings me to another point, the methods of which local children are learning English is rather idiotic. One cannot expect a person who's grown up faced with mainly Chinese and rarely any English to go about learning nouns, verbs and all those bits and pieces. Since one can't just go "Well, the Chinese translation of this word is that, I'll just change the tense and the sentence should work if I translate it word for word."
The local exam (HKCEE) encourages student to go nitpicking on the smallest mistakes. In fact, one of the exam questions are to go through a paragraph, where mistakes have been purposefully laid out in most of the sentences and the job of the student is to pick out those mistakes, correct it and state was it a spelling, punctuation or tense mistake. I've done the damn test and damn nearly failed it, you know why? Because your average native English speaker honestly does not care unless he is made to pay specific attention to it. If it reads smoothly, the punctuation works and the there are no obvious mistakes, it's fine.
I can feel that I'm rambling a bit now, but bear with me, we're almost done. Also, after some in depth thinking, gloating and bitching, I think I've come to a conclusion as to why local Hong Kong people online are such major douches. Asides from the things like a inferiority complex when faced with somebody that might be potentially better than him/her in English, being offended by being reminded that English is not their first language and that the local education system encourages such behavior. It is also equally important to remember that Hong Kong's not only the cultural gateway between East and West geographically but also in cyberspace.
To put it less elegantly, the rest of the Western world could gather around one language - English, on the Internet. Hong Kong although having early Net access did not have a common language, so they formed their own little enclave and tried their best to integrate local cultures (other wise, 'slang' and Chinese profanities) onto their own little portion of the Internet. As the rest of the world progressed and went to make forums, image-boards and blogs, Hong Kong still maintained the notion that big forums were better forums, so no individuality at all came forth (I'm looking at the two biggest forums in Hong Kong: Uwants and Discuss.com.hk). I guess this has somewhat slowed the pace of online civilisation, whereas the rest of the world outgrew the stage where every debate turned into a flame-war and every post was trolled like there would be no tomorrow, Hong Kong did not - especially if you're not good at typing Chinese, then the inferiority complex also comes into play.
You thought sarcasm doesn't translate well online in English, wait till you see it in Chinese. Regular posters would often troll the living daylights out of new forum members while those who have stayed long enough to not get trolled will actively join in and 'admire' and 'respect' those who have made sarcastic comments as witty, smart and 'informative'. Perhaps it's just another way of trolling but honestly I think some of them do think the trolls are dispensing helpful advice even though they're obviously not.
Perhaps I am wrong, perhaps I am arrogant or just a stupendously thick person. But these are my own observations. I have searched, I have found and I was trolled hard. Concluding Statement? Hong Kong's online community are a bunch of trolls trolling trolls on a forum for trolls. Don't expect anything |
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| Local Hong Kong poeple piss me off. |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|04:09 pm] |
So, it's summer break and I've got almost nothing to do except to go online, check forums and stuff. It's come to my recent attention...fine, not recent - it's been a while since I've noticed this but didn't feel the need to say anything until recently.
Local Chinese people piss me off online. Why is there an absolute need to go and nit-pick on tiny insignificant mistakes in a particular post to ridicule someone if they are posting in English? This personally does not bother me if the poster is pointing a blatant mistake or the mistake made is particularly awful, funny or some combination of both but seriously, they go around and point out the smallest mistakes.
So far, I've been 'accused' of using an informal tone, a minor spelling mistake and supposedly 'boasting' that my English is superior.
I mean, dear Lord it's the end of the world, you don't speak like the President of the United States or type like you're sending a legal document. There's more, when they accuse you, they also assume these rather strange racial stances like that since you type in English, you must either be 1) A person who worships Western cultures or 2) Middle-Eastern or Indian. What the hell is this? Also, their posts aren't anywhere near perfect either, even when they type in Chinese, they would add these slangs like 'D', 'wor' and feel the urge to swear at you like you've raped their entire family.
FUCKIN' RAGE D: |
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| A declaration: |
[Aug. 17th, 2008|11:25 pm] |
To whom it may concern,
For the past few years (Since my start of West Island School in Year 8), I have tried to be as friendly and forgiving as I can be, but it has come to my attention that you have failed to recognize me as something more than an oddity or sorts and have often provoked, ridiculed and had a good laugh at my expense.
Friends are there when you are down, when you want somebody to talk to, they care for you. I thought some of you were my friends, I thought you would've cared. None of you were ever there for any of that. I thought you were above telling half of the school about my secrets, above telling the girl I have a crush to not tell me where you poeple are, to tell those around you that I am a potential rapist. I hate you for the things you have done, becuase I thought you were my friends.
I have tried befriending most of you, but so far, none of you that I address currently seem to understand that this is a sign that I too, am human. Instead, you have taken it as a weakness or more of a reason to reject and isolate me. That is fine, even though I have truly hoped that at least some of you will be my friends. I forgive you, all the wrongs that you have done, all the pain you have caused me. I clear it from my mental history and forgive you.
But this bullshit ends at the Start of Year 13, becuase I have finally figured it out. I don't need you, I don't need to endure this pain, I can have fun on my own. I don't need you to understand who I am, I can find those around me.
So fuck off and die.
Philip, I never spread ANY slander about you at school, even when I know you were going out with Linda.
Ivan, I thought of you as a friend, but not anymore.
Alejo, I never publicly insulted you about your body-size.
Steven, I didn't even wrong you in anyway.
Nicholas, just because you're popular doesn't mean you can treat be like shit.
To those I have not named, it is not becuase I don't know you, it is becuase I believe that you will not who you are. I am not declaring hostilities, those that want to be my friend, feel free to. I am still going to be around. But those that don't, don't expect me to be so forgiving. |
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| Summer's almost over and I've done nothing....D: |
[Aug. 7th, 2008|08:16 pm] |
So I've fucked myself over by doing nothing about my Extended Essay, haven't contacted my godmother, forgot to go to Ani-con (STUPID STUPID STUPID D:), didn't bother to find information about AUT, didn't go to the wet-market.
Jesus, save me when all of this hits the fan, becuase only God can save me now.
But in the mean time...
I love you, Dan. (I hope you feel the same about me XD) |
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| Journal Entry#2 (7-8-08) |
[Jul. 8th, 2008|05:21 am] |
Daisuke Katsumi,
Words cannot describe how I feel right now, I wish I was there for you, to hug you and kiss you and tell you everything’s alright. But I’m not the person you love, you love Greg, and I really feel like an outsider when you talk about him, so much love, so much need, you two seem to be made for each other. Sometimes, I wish I was Greg, just for a little while, just to see how it would be like to be with you, but then you’d still be loving Greg and not me.
I’m such an inferior person to Greg and you, I don’t look good, I’m not strong or smart or of any useful qualities in fact. I just wish I was a little better, then maybe I’d catch your eye...one day. Since I cannot catch your eye as a lover, I shall be your guardian angel. But if I died one day, will you miss me? Will you remember me? |
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| BackLog #1 (13-5-08) |
[Jul. 8th, 2008|05:19 am] |
13-5-2008
Daisuke Katsumi,
I just wanted to say that I love you, but I couldn’t. It tears me apart everytime I look at your MSN personal message – I feel so happy for you that you’ve found somebody you love, Greg sounds like a really awesome person to be with; but then I feel so depressed, like a little bit of me inside has died since I know that you love him, not me. I guess it’s for the better, I live so far away that we’re not even on the same continent and long distance relationships more than often fall apart anyway, besides, we’ve never even met in real life...and I don’t deserve you, you’re too perfect in everyway, you are everything what I dreamed of.
It’s 2:21am here in Hong Kong, I really ought to be going to bed, but I just wanted to tell you that my love for you is genuine, I really would go to England to see you if I could. But you’re with Greg now and you seem happy, you probably pretend you enjoy talking to me, my retarded voice, my stupid miaowing and my display of affection for you through the internet, listening to my cry and bitch about my life. In fact, I don’t really recall me asking how was your day; shows how selfish I am, doesn’t it?
Funny though, of all the places we meet each other in /b/ on 4chan. I never really expected somebody like you to be on /b/.
I think I’ll tell you in the morning, I hope you’re online then. |
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| Ya, still alive. |
[Aug. 3rd, 2007|02:22 pm] |
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Argh, not dead yet, just saying. Right. |
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| Story of my life! Angst! Emo! Sasuke! |
[May. 10th, 2007|05:20 pm] |
It's so easy to be invisible these days, nobody notices, nobody cares. You are just a statistic, nothing more, nothing less. Nothing personal about it. If you want, you could be loud, the Virginia Tech guy understands what I'm going through, to be alone, to be isolated. So, he went out with a bang and he brought down world down with me. But is that my goal in life? Are my choices either be Captain Loner, the class nerd and freak or be a potential mass murderer?
This is probably the closest the public will ever know me. I keep my secrets guarded.
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| Sigh, Valentine's Day |
[Feb. 14th, 2007|09:35 am] |
It's Valentine's Day...the day you show how much you love him/her...Yay. So once again, me, Aqua has looked at his fellow schoolmates and friends with that familiar feeling of Envy boiling underneath his skin because as some of you know, I am rather unsuccessful in the Love Department (or rather, the lack of such a department).
So yah, it's Valentine's Day, my plan for today consists of going to school, watching people recieve flowers, candy and kisses while I stand around and mop in the imaginary corner hoping that this day would just bloody pass and going home to try and fit in a game of NOTD:AM.
I'll be glad when this day is over. |
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| Well, it's Christmas! Yay! |
[Dec. 22nd, 2006|02:15 pm] |
But after Christmas, it's the GCSE mocks, so I'm gonna be more dead than ever, which is not good. Personally, I don't see the point of of remembering quotes from books, I mean, who the fuck is going to need to remember quotes or information in this age, where a simple Google Search can have more info that you can memorise in a decade?
Well, will stop ranting and go back to lurkdom now. |
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| Random update: |
[Nov. 16th, 2006|08:00 pm] |
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Just for all of you that read this, I'm still alive! :D |
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| Oh dear - I take back everything I said |
[Sep. 18th, 2006|09:06 am] |
Hmm....haven't updated my LJ for a while. (Particularly since I have nothing to say. >_<)
Well, I just want to add that I'm still alive (although I sometimes wish I wasnt) and that everything is going okay....
Well, another CoE update - I just want to say that I am NOT STALKING ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) midnightbanshee , this is all based on a misunderstanding.
Comments and additional questions are welcome, I will try my best to answer that. :) |
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| CoE, everywhere, anywhere - dear lord, save me. |
[Aug. 26th, 2006|07:44 pm] |
So, it all ends like this. I get banned from the CoE (although it seems to be based off of a one sided story of me stalking poeple. :F). But hell I keep bumping into the CoE everywhere and anywhere.
I do a search for EdxEnvy fics - I find that the betas ( such as ![[info]](http://livejournal.com/img/newyearpic_1.gif) wiccat and another one ) are CoE members.
During a random LJ search, I find x_reggg - Who happens to be a good friend of midnightbanshee and also a resident of Hong Kong and goes to ESF school.
Sometimes, doing a search for things (such as squid) and I tend to end up back in the CoE's LJ becuase they seem to dicuss everything and anything under the sun.
Tru:F, rly.
I am seriously scared as I come to terms that CoE is like the Gestapo or the KGB , they are everywhere and you better watch your mouth. One wrong word and they'll decend on you like snakes on a plane buttered toast. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 18th, 2006|03:07 am] |
It's 3:08am as I type this, I'm supposed to be asleep, but I'm not. The baby is crying becuase it's bloody hungry, everyone else got a rude awakening too.
Thank god the baby moves out at the 19 back to China. |
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